Wow its been more than a year since I have posted here, I suspected that I wouldn't keep up with it. The crazy thing is although a lot has happened not much as changed in the attitudes of the party promoters not much has even changed with the dj's either.

I'm no longer streaming the internet station, but I'm still keeping my site live and up to date, I was working on it just yesterday.

When I first started this blog I was terrified to make it personal and let anyone know whose blog this was but through the years, I have gained a sense of myself and what I am able to handle and deal with. Plus I no longer care because I recognize they don't care it's all about the money because I feel like if they did care I wouldn't have the troubles I do.  After 6 years I'm still in what I consider the underground, doing parties in basements and backyards only a few clubs, I want to broadin out, I'm still learning and advancing with my style, and unfortunately this is where the parties are that my ppl attend so I follow.

I love being a dj, my life was boring up until I discovered VDJ, I always loved music, I was a dancer since I was young all the way through college but I never even attempted to make it big because I had a certain shyness about me, more than shy it was insecure, if you seen me play you probably don't think so but there have been plenty of shows where I had to try and calm my breathing, then throw up and empty my stomach before I went on! I'm mostly ova that now. I just love making ppl have a good time and when I put on chune after chune that ppl love and they shout me and get wild wid it! Gyrls be gyrating all on my table, guys daggering like madd, I love it! Sometimes it's just hard to know what chunes to start with and everybody is staring at you waiting for you to do it up, it can be a little nerve wracking.

The worst and really only problem are the party promoters and some of the hardcore 'this is a man's job' djs. I got some who just want me to play never pulling a dolla out dem pocket, then there's those who say do this party at the last minute which shows no respect for my time or skill and then there's those who wait until after I've played and then tell me they didn't make enough money to pay me, some give me sob stories about not selling enough liqueur. One told me even though the Birthday girl called me personally and asked if I would play at her party I wasn't on her flyer so i wasn't getting paid even though he had more than a $1,000 in his hand from the door alone and was walking around paying the other djs.  What can I do? I am a lone female in my sound, I don't travel with an entourage and every time I've really stood up and said something harsh I had to practically pick up a chair and give threats and then you know what? next time they don't want me to play for them we have beef now and some go around saying I'm a trouble maker, not cause I bring bad company, play shitty or fight others but because I want to be paid at the end of the nite! I be so frustrated on the way home and given the fact that I'm a female, no a mother who's been out all nite playing music and making others nite now I gotta go home empty handed. There are times I'm not working outside of djying and what I make is how we eat, I have went home on the promise of a paid party with nothing and we had no breakfast especially when I was single once I played with 104 degree fever I had caught the flu and a few party goers had to buy me meds because a lot of ppl hadn't showed up because of bad weather and the party promoter refuse to pay. And Oh Oh now that I have a man he wants to kill literally just start fighting and I have to stop him and argue and fight him to chill, it puts a big strain on us for me to work and not get paid and he can't fight them because that would make it worse, IT SUCKS BIG TIME!
Not one person has told me I don't play good or they didn't have a good time, ppl beg me to get whatever dj is on off and play. I know I am good better than good, excellent and some of the other get jealous and try to talk shit. Sometimes they wait for me to get the party going good and when everyone is excited and dancing now they want to insist it's their turn to play. Once the uncle of a dj threw a drink on my laptop so his nephew could play NOW.

This was a long entry I guess cause I haven't written for a while and I have still been going through this bullcrap even as of a week ago its still happening and I'm as frustrated as ever. But I can't give up ever cause then they would win and I can't let that happen....smh