GET THE FUCK OUDA HERE WID DA BULLSHIT!

It pisses me off that I'm being called a trouble maker cause I demand to get paid. What kinda shit is that? Niggas' is only excited to hear mi play - if they don't have to pay me? Fuck out wid the dumb shit...yeah that's right I said it No pay...no play.

 I don't mention names here, just if you know me, know my scene & the players, than you know. If your one of the dirty bastards actin' out towards me, than you know too.

Mi go to a party and talk to the head dj, him say come play next week. The next week mi show up with mi equipment. When mi hook up mi software starts act up. So mi call the next dj only like a half hour in and i get to just enjoy the party. Before I leave I askin how much he's playin for full play, he said he had to talk to the owner he would see. 

The next week mi show up, hook up and play. 

About 40 mins in my play a next dj starts askin' mi how many more mi plan to play, I got irritated cause I asked this dj to do him ting before mi cause, I really wanted to play early morning, he said nah he didn't even know if him was gon play, so I got on, the dance floor got packed they was loving my chune choice and then that's when he wanted in. Mine you, the last dj played for more than 2 hours! So I talked to the head and told him why I was gon keep playin' we exchanged a few word he told the other dj and he started actin' like he was gonna switch me off, I swear it would have really been some shit if he had did that, he didn't but he did put his hand up there a few times. I played for another hour and let him on. He started talkin crap as soon as he got on.  He pissed me off cause he's only a half descent dj, who mixes with scratched up old cd's and he doen't even beatmatch well, there be spaces in btwn, while he's changing them that he fills with nonsense banter nobody wanted to hear. He's talkin shit bout mi on the firestick.

And he needed to put much more of a focus on playin' Cause maybe he could have done better.

...yeah I said it AND I ANIT SCARED...YOUR RIGHT THIS NOT THE RADIO STATION AND I CAN CURSE YO UGLY ASS THE FUCK OUT HERE YOU JUST MAD CAUSE I NEVER INVITED YO ASS.

People were walking up to me all nite tellin' me I killed the party and if they could have my card or number and my favorite was: 'can I get the whack ass dj off and get back on'!

THERE!.

 Okay so you would think it's all good now...

I mean why do I have to even ask if I'm a get paid, it's a automatic for a job well done. Apparently not so... him the head dj tells me wait until the next party and he can do someting...

The next week, Mi hook up, mi play, i kill it and at the end of the nite, he becomes MLK giving speeches bout 'this him and his mans dream ting and djs come out the wood works tryin to take ova and dem play too long and dem fight ova the time and dem expect to get paid, and how him nah make no money to pay nobody! talkin' bout he just want dj's to drop by, make a short play and break out, cause it's his ting. 

Hold ya cock that's yours...sick of taking the bullshit quietly.

Mind you I've been standing around more than an hour after the party waitin' cause he told me to, now he talkin' shit, not to me but to another dj that wasn't askin' to get paid just what time to come the next week! I took my tackle nackle and broke out and I'm done wid that scene, cause that having a cock really means something to them there and I don't have one.

 The other dj is still there and another dj whos real cool with me, even tho he is a really big sound, told me that he came to case the place cause (the head dj) offered him $200 to play there but it was too small for him and he didn't even want to play there!

AND NOW...

I might not be getting calls to many parties right now cause there's THE CREW BEFORE THIS.

And I think they're black balling me! They're' jealous of not only my skill as a dj, but the fact that I'm in a relationship with the last guy they thought I would pick out of them...and I'm loyal to him Ha ha I just had to get the last laugh hee-hee! So far he has been more descent to me than I see any of them treat they girls, a bunch of nasty, no money having cheaters. Their parties are getting whack anyway. Them niggas asking bitches who can get to the bathroom first and hand they panties ova to the dj for an everyting off the clearance rack VS bag. Seriously...and bitches was breakin' dem neck to reach, bitches was takin' them off on the dance floor, and I'm not gay so...I thought that shit was too much. but they did have fun and win something so whatever makes your nite.

 It's more about, after a bitch have to deal with somebody else sweaty worn panties like a trooper I expect more than $20 for the deal, especially when you peal that bill out of a stack of bills cause the spot was packed all nite. It feels as if there is not enough water in nyc to get how dirty & used these guys can make you feel. Many mornings I was so angry going home, I would kick shit on my way to let it out my frustration. knowing I did my thing, had to put up with the bullshit and they don't want to pay. It's the frustrating part...but

 WHAT'S A GIRL TO DO...?

Wow its been more than a year since I have posted here, I suspected that I wouldn't keep up with it. The crazy thing is although a lot has happened not much as changed in the attitudes of the party promoters not much has even changed with the dj's either.

I'm no longer streaming the internet station, but I'm still keeping my site live and up to date, I was working on it just yesterday.

When I first started this blog I was terrified to make it personal and let anyone know whose blog this was but through the years, I have gained a sense of myself and what I am able to handle and deal with. Plus I no longer care because I recognize they don't care it's all about the money because I feel like if they did care I wouldn't have the troubles I do.  After 6 years I'm still in what I consider the underground, doing parties in basements and backyards only a few clubs, I want to broadin out, I'm still learning and advancing with my style, and unfortunately this is where the parties are that my ppl attend so I follow.

I love being a dj, my life was boring up until I discovered VDJ, I always loved music, I was a dancer since I was young all the way through college but I never even attempted to make it big because I had a certain shyness about me, more than shy it was insecure, if you seen me play you probably don't think so but there have been plenty of shows where I had to try and calm my breathing, then throw up and empty my stomach before I went on! I'm mostly ova that now. I just love making ppl have a good time and when I put on chune after chune that ppl love and they shout me and get wild wid it! Gyrls be gyrating all on my table, guys daggering like madd, I love it! Sometimes it's just hard to know what chunes to start with and everybody is staring at you waiting for you to do it up, it can be a little nerve wracking.

The worst and really only problem are the party promoters and some of the hardcore 'this is a man's job' djs. I got some who just want me to play never pulling a dolla out dem pocket, then there's those who say do this party at the last minute which shows no respect for my time or skill and then there's those who wait until after I've played and then tell me they didn't make enough money to pay me, some give me sob stories about not selling enough liqueur. One told me even though the Birthday girl called me personally and asked if I would play at her party I wasn't on her flyer so i wasn't getting paid even though he had more than a $1,000 in his hand from the door alone and was walking around paying the other djs.  What can I do? I am a lone female in my sound, I don't travel with an entourage and every time I've really stood up and said something harsh I had to practically pick up a chair and give threats and then you know what? next time they don't want me to play for them we have beef now and some go around saying I'm a trouble maker, not cause I bring bad company, play shitty or fight others but because I want to be paid at the end of the nite! I be so frustrated on the way home and given the fact that I'm a female, no a mother who's been out all nite playing music and making others nite now I gotta go home empty handed. There are times I'm not working outside of djying and what I make is how we eat, I have went home on the promise of a paid party with nothing and we had no breakfast especially when I was single once I played with 104 degree fever I had caught the flu and a few party goers had to buy me meds because a lot of ppl hadn't showed up because of bad weather and the party promoter refuse to pay. And Oh Oh now that I have a man he wants to kill literally just start fighting and I have to stop him and argue and fight him to chill, it puts a big strain on us for me to work and not get paid and he can't fight them because that would make it worse, IT SUCKS BIG TIME!
Not one person has told me I don't play good or they didn't have a good time, ppl beg me to get whatever dj is on off and play. I know I am good better than good, excellent and some of the other get jealous and try to talk shit. Sometimes they wait for me to get the party going good and when everyone is excited and dancing now they want to insist it's their turn to play. Once the uncle of a dj threw a drink on my laptop so his nephew could play NOW.

This was a long entry I guess cause I haven't written for a while and I have still been going through this bullcrap even as of a week ago its still happening and I'm as frustrated as ever. But I can't give up ever cause then they would win and I can't let that happen....smh